No one can say they have gotten their heartbroken until they actually experience love. They say heart break is the worse pain you will ever feel. Worse than breaking your arm or leg. They think their right. They say they wish they never met that person. When really they just wanna know when they screwed up. Well.here i am in the middle of the night, cant stop thinking of him. I cant stop wondering if i did or didn't do or something that was completely out of my control. When his only excuse was that it was hurting his so called "best friend". If he was a true friend he wouldn't stand in the way of happiness. He said their friendship was too important to loose. All i want is for him to say he cares and mean it. When I talked to his friend (which is also mine) he said he was perfectly fine with it as long as we were happy. People think I move on quickly because i have a smile on my face. But do they know its just a mask and that i cry every night since Sunday February 13 at around nine pm. I cry but then I hide my feelings. When all i want to do is cry and think about him. People say he's a jerk he didn't know what he had or I'll move on and find someone better. But what if better never comes along. What if the perfect guy stared me right in the face and i let him walk away. He said the oldest lne in the world "We can still be friends" then "I love you." But if you loved me and cared you would risk everything just for me and you wouldn't want to just be friends you'd want more. Im sorry if im not what you expected i'm sorry if I did something wrong but most of all i'm sorry for not saying this to your face. (not like i would get the chance) This is why its on the internet to see if you cared enough to read this. I still care i really do. But i'm not giving you another chance no matter if it kills me. I wont let you break my heart again. It's too precious to be tossed around. And every time I think of you or breaks a little more. I will get over you I will find someone new. And when anyone asks why i couldn't risk everything for you I'll reply "I did all i could ti make him happy." It just wasn't right for you to treat me this way but I know that there will be someone else like you and when i see him i won't ever say yes. I thank anyone who took the time to read all the way through this. I know yall probably been here too. So thank you for listening to my story. i finally got everything off my chest and I will probably sleep better at night knowing someone listened.
