Every now & Then.... He abandons me

I want more.. I'm not satisfied. Give me a bigger share.. Don't you think I deserve more? When I offer you my fruit, you accept it. Don't you know anything about the giving back theory?! He answered a "NO".. A very plain and simple NO. And he doesn't even try to explain me why! Well I guess he only knew about GIVING but not GIVING-BACK. Because his thoughts are selfless. And he never declined my offer. Because it's my duty to serve him. And moreover he didn't demand anything. I was always free. He never held me back. It was Me, who never choose to leave. Now he abandons me.. It doesn't mean that he will never come back. He could just be a little late. Whatever it is.. I wait here. Under the same shade of his love and trust. And I never choose to LEAVE!

Allooo..

Pheewwww.. After a few months of hectic I'm back guys. Well you guys know what happened, I lost my password for ankithascinema website!! I'm quite brilliant right?? Well then, not a big matter. Still you guys can subscribe for my reviews at here and this year I started my review blogging with Nimirnthu Nil, where my two favourite peoples pair up in this movie.. :) Oh yeah, I and my Purni have launched our own music and dance group called the Heldegard. Can find us in facebook and twitter as well. And song compositions are really going on well. I'm suppose to be there with them now, but hooked up with some personal matter, so couldn't make it. And soon we will upload our dance video on youtube, oh wait.. I know.. Sure will let you guys know the links okay. And the dance is coming up with three different style. Bharathanatyam, Contemporary and Kutthu dance. Till then stay bless and I love each and every one of you peoples out there. And lets put all our prayers together for the missing jet MH370 :) Aummmmmmm !! 

Importance

Sometimes Life teaches us many things. I continue to learn and I'm still learning. I find there is no limit for learning anything new. I can count with my both hands and off coarse with a few toes the number of people who have contributed with well-wish and prayers for me to be who I am now at this second.

Today I happened to talk about relatives and how suddenly I remember the super distant family circles that I have no idea about how they are actually related to me and how should I call them. Which means, you need to grow up with these peoples to know how exactly they are related to you and how.

But then today somehow I managed to meet with one of my uncle, whom I never seen him since I was born. But I know the way how he related to me. How come I know the way but don't know who is he actually?? Okay now. That will be the first mistake being done by all parents who are having or had a misunderstanding with their close or long distance relatives.

You are making your child to not know what's the real of  his/her root. Wait!! I know my root and my mom has taught me that. But not all parent do the same as my parents done to me and my siblings. Now there might be a question started to roam around your little brain and again wait!!! I know my root and I know he is my uncle (mama) and I know how exactly he's related to me. I just didn't see his face once from the first day I came to this world. And that once happened today. So no more questions will start to roam in your little mind I reckon.

For me I guess every Indian child in this universe should know their root, where they actually hail from, and off coarse their caste too. But just don't make it as a issue and a social mistake by using the word caste. After all there is only one caste. "Human caste". The reason you need to teach your kids is, one they shouldn't feel like lost or something else infront of the one who knows all about themselve.

Worth of Waiting

Okay.. Guess the waiting thing is actually worth.. Btw bebe.. I'm somewhere very very near to you now.. Soon will be standing beside you and torturing you like those days.. Ops!! Correction .. I will stand beside you, but then you the one who going to torture me.. Right??? :P

And to those bloody bitches out side there, you girls better watch out your own way... You girls just don't have any sing rights to do it again. And most of all talk about my friend Kisha.. You peoples are just not worth to say her name even.. I and Kisha.. Usually our fights won't even last for a 5seconds.. But you bitches made us to stay away from everything for 3 years.. Totally sucks.. Hell is waiting for you peoples... :(

Friendship is the one which always wins even at the last second.. :)

Conversation with an anon or Maybe Kisha..

India at 67!

This is the very very first year I'm blogging on August 15 and especially on the Independence Day of India. I'm not an Indian citizen, but every Indians from the universe are somehow by root belongs to India. And by that way I consider myself as a Proud Indian who never born in India but loves India so much. Today morning I woke up, ready to rant on about what a proud nation we are. Independent,,, modern,,, and savvy. So why is it then, suddenly I found myself lost in more negative comments from the locals and those who lives abroad. Some call our independence just an "Illusion", while some other question what is the point of our INDEPENDENCE actually? Today is the day where we are supposed to remember the teachings of Gandhi. But what do we really have to remember? That we are independent of a country that ruled over us for years before we finally kicked them out? But over 60 years later, are we really independent? Till date, we hear of stories of the female infanticide, dowry, corruption,  and even caste discrimination. Not really independent from our mentality and thinking.

The word INDEPENDENCE is totally taken for granted. Physical independence was the initial problem. And so through brave hearts like Gandhiji and Nehruji, we drove out the British. That act in itself was a foundation for what we should have followed. However here we are at 66 years later, still reeling in issues that are rather sticky. Ultimately the problem is very simple : Lack of EDUCATION.

There is a huge difference. But it's fair to blame all the above issues on the uneducated?? As an educated Indians, we too have a responsibility towards our country. The first of course is so simple. VOTE. The illiterate don't know the differences between their politicians. They are hungry for anything, and thus they will place their vote in those who provide them with empty promises. Every five years ones a metrovoter chooses not to go out and vote. By that you're actually allowing one more corrupt politician to gain another illiterate vote.

Todays' youth have a responsibility to get involved. it's your country, your future. if you're sick of the system, then get and do something rather than just sitting in your sofa, drinking a cup of chaiy and commenting on the ministers who are filling their pockets. And if you're told you don't know what you're talking about, you're still a kid, et all that jazz, then instead of shrugging and walking away, take a stand. The power of youth shouldn't be underestimated.

Look to say we are not an independent strong nation is totally false. This is one of the reasons we are attacked by terrorists regularly. They fear the pace at which we're progressing. But this is not a reason to back down. In fact, now more than ever, we need to get it together. Now this is the time. Our freedom fighters say, " This is not the India we fought for." It's now time to make it that India.

Jai Hind... I am and will always be a proud Indian.

Being Myself!

There was a moment in my life, at the end of last year where there was a loads of conversations with peoples who knows me well. Which means since I born. But I just don't take their advice! It's all an old advices, just like them. And I'm sure I'm going to be a great person if I listen to them. But there were another few peoples who came into my life in this recent time. Who hold my hands when I was in a very critical situation with tough days. I can say it to anyone, they knows me better than the relatives I know. Yes, it's true! The talk with the peoples who we each other knows well, was just with mind-to-mind, heart-to-heart. They want me to know the best of mine but not dumping me, just like the others does to me earlier.

They says I have changed from before. Transformed.. Not more the old Rubini Shetty. You're someone who is capable to do anything that you love, just to achieve your LIFE dream. But I think, Did I really changed?? Better or worse?  Sometimes we are lucky to find out peoples who are just too similar to our character or at least who are being in our state of mind. 

But in mine, I haven't found any one as that yet. There would be sometimes for us to learn a lesson for our own. make some decisions without looking our and discussing with others. (I personally advice you, please don't ever listen  to your siblings, unless they are spending their own days with you or at least you guys are in the age group. If you still listen those who are 15-20 years elder than you, then you life just will be like in HELL.) Ask questions and answers for ourselves. By knowing the one person who is very important for us is - ourselves! How well do you know yourself? 

Stand in front your mirror and look at your own eyes and talk. Are you afraid to look at your own eyes? 

So then this friend told me, Make every moment as yours. And it's upto your wish whether to make it beautiful or whatever else. Choose to be happy. Forget about all the craps that's roaming around you now. Live your Life for this moment. And your life is only for you. Question yourself and find the answer, so that you can know yourself better than anyone else in this universe. Go beyond your dream. Be honest. It might be scary at first, but when you get to know all this, you'll find yourself a brand new person in this globe. With a new vision.

Post "X5"

Hey folks. It's been very long time since I wrote about what's happening around me. Totally was a way from all. Even I was very less active in both Twitter & Facebook. Past these few month I have came through with so many problems in my life. Studies, health, parents, friends and relatives. But all these thing are just related to one!! That is "MONEY"! Well previously I have gone thru with Chinmayi akka's blog and there she has penned down "When the going gets tough, plunge into studying." 

So when I was in this situation, I just made up my mind to go to MPH bookstore and buy some books. I bought a few amazing books written by Paulo Coelho titled Brida, The Alchemist and then Sophie Kinsella's The Whole Shopaholic series, Cocktails for Three, Sleeping Arrangement, and her new book I've got your Number. All of this books were super amazing. I think I just took about a week to finish reading all of these each books. And yes, newly I have joined in Kuchipudi class and love learning the Andhra Pradesh art form. I guess most of you peoples who are non- Indian don't know what is KUCHIPUDI is. Well will post a video at the end of the story. And currently I'm thinking of pursuing my studies in Management field. Just because loads of Maths involve in that. lo. You know I'm a maths geek. hee hee ☺ ... Sometimes when I get a free time from my busy days , I'll just plunge my head into the STATISTIC text books from Oxford and study all those graphs and solve the problems too. Maybe I guess, this books all keep me going on till now, even I'm living in a very sorrow life. There are some peoples who still thinks that I'm having a very charmed life. But the truth is, they need to get closer to me to know the fact that it's all sorrow. So after facing too many bloody problems I have made up my mind to study, when God behaves too mean to me. And that is how I realize studying is actually a very beautiful. After all we will know ourselves best! No one need to direct us in good or bad. And I'm like that. I don't like when people order me to this or that. I feel it's a very awkward thing for me to done. You know Aquarians are born to lead! lol.  hee hee ☺ ☻ And off coarse there will be the sometimes urg.. wait.. most of the times I get angry with god. In fact, I will scold him and won't even pray for sometimes. No flowers, no theertham, no prasadam. STAY HUNGRY!!! yes.. That's me and this how I will behave to GOD! Even today morning I did this to him. Sometimes there will be a moment when I'll curse the god.  When my mom was admitted in hospital on last September, I think no one in this world has scold or cursed this as much as I did!! Sometimes I speak to myself, What god will be thinking about me?! WHAT kind of creatures I have sent to this planet? lol But then, That's ME! But I don't regret for what I'm doing. Because I know my way is right. So inspite of all the nonsense I see around me, all the bloody and crap things that get doled out, I just turn out myself in studying/learning/teaching/ or reading something. It's far better then wasting your energy brooding about people and circumstance. 

Charity... Foundation... Social!!!!

do you guys have any social responsibilities?? or supporting to any social activities with the organization?? or admire any social activist? well by the recent time I'm following some non-profit organization pages in both twitter and facebook, whom are supporting for woman, and girl childrens education. As I young girl, I personally feel it's very much important to educate the young girl childrens in this generations. past these few weeks I'm helping with Aham Bhumika (non-profit organization that doing a charity for girls sociaty in Bhopal, India).. i got to know about Aham Bhumika from Chinmayi's tweets. actually this social works are all was inspired by Priya Anand. For me, I can describe her as a God's child. haha :):) actually I consider people who helps other are God's Child! She do loads and loads of thing to the organization called as Save The Children-India, while Chinmayi will suport for the NalandaWay Foundation. I got read her blogs on last year beginning about her works for the girl childrens and NalandaWay Foundation. Now this is just a beginning for me with Aham Bhumika. Hope all will go on good with Go'd blessings.. Off coarse!


the organizations that I keep myself update

PETA-India (for pets)
Save The Children-India/Malaysia (education)
Aham Bhumika (girl childrens)

Sssshhh..

Don't read out this loud!! I'm trying to keep this moment SILENT. See.... There is so much of noise in this world. Every single person talks but no one listen. We're the most noisiest planet in this world. Or maybe the most terribly loudest one, we are! Everywhere words are being said. And everybody seems to be talking at the same time. And no break. Just close your eyes for a second and take yourself just near or beside the cloud. What happen?? Even there too you can listen the noise this human makes from down. Now fly more up.. What's next? There came the clingy and tingly noises of Satellites that almost coming near to hit you. Don't scream!!! Just kick it. Like you do on a swing. Anyway this moment I create to be silent. Just one moment where I can keep everyone to stay silent at the same time. Every keeps their eyes wide open, but close the ear and mouth shut. No Tv, Radio, Music and so on..... Everybody just be quite and still. And maybe at that second you will get a chance to catch the voice of your thoughts!! ;)

Real Beauty

calm is her heart, so is she an art..

an art of lord, well crafted through seasons..

created by a love so divine..to be a part..

of her mother's womb as she blossoms..

making her first appearance to the light

wrapped in a piece of cottony cloth!!

and opened her eyes so bright..

crying as she takes her first breath!!

Filled with joy and happiness...

were the days spent with her...

as she grew up spreading her innocence

that in later years were to wither..

but blooming to a new kind of pleasure..

to the eyes of her beholder..

as she flew around in leisure..

spreading her ecstasy like a flower.

The wind was in love with her hair...

as it blew through, breathing in her scent..

so was the glow of the moonlight's desire..

to bathe her like her garment...

when she smiles the whole world rejoices..

to her elegance so wonderful..

like the rain that pours down in summer days..

leaving the sands so colorful!!

She is the strength that inspires...

She is the care that keeps you alive...

She is the love that nurtures..

She is the healing power that lets you survive

She is a mother...

She is a daughter..

She is a sister...

She is a friend...

She is a lover...

She is a wife...

She is the soul mate..

She is your companion...

She lives in you..

She breathes through you..

She is a part of you..

She is the Beauty!!

The Eternal Beauty!!!

Every girl is born beautiful..she is with you in every sphere of life...throughout her life.. she is your daughter full of innocence..she is your sister who you played with...she is your friend with whom you shared your worries..she is the lover who you admired...she is the wife who served all your needs...she is the mother who brought you into this world and grew you up to a human being!!..she is the one who nurtured your life...she is an art of perfection of the lord..she has the strength to go through her pains!! to make this a better place for you to live in!! 

She is Beautiful!!!

 Respect her inner self!!

 Which makes every woman  beautiful!! 

Lets celebrate her beauty!! the Real Beauty hidden in every lady!! Lets embrace her true colors of love and elegance which makes her beautiful inside out!! Let every woman live in Peace and Dignity!! 

A Tribute to her beauty!!! 

PS: this was written by a girl name called Cindrella from Kerala. Admire her words so posting it for my followers. xoxo

I'm SINGLE

As girls get closer to age 22, people will start to ask so what’s next, when is your turn, when you wana get married if we went to any occasions. I would just answer this, ” I prefer too be alone” that’s when my mood is too good. But then, sometimes I might asked myself “Why I am Single”? The answer is still you never find your loved ones!!! My friend asked me when you gonna fall in love? I turned to her and said should ask to god because never shown my prince yet!! And just walked away with a Kollywood style.

I’m Single, Off coarse; being a kollywood junkie. Are anyone there who is more passionate than me in Kollywood film?? Off coarse not as I am who wants a different kind of ultimate love story in Kollywood!! It can’t be too straightforward, simple, easy and too random. Just like walking by the college terrace and suddenly I bump on him and my books would fall. He’d help me to pick up those books and that’s where as I would murmur clinched words, ” Kannu Illaiya, Parthu vara theriyatha??” Our eyes would meet and he’ll feel that I’m the dream girl of HIM. And then a dream song with 100′s of dancers. Hmm, this is a kind too boring love where we all have seen it in too many Tamil movies which still never changed a bit yet from this love intro scene and scripts!!!

And true, I can’t stand up with this same scene too. And moreover I doesn’t wants any Kollywood Love story happen to me on. They don’t exist in real life. He’ll not bump onto me, and no, he’ll definitely put a red kumkum on my forehead and I’ll make a beautiful bride. “All this only happens in movies.” Who knew themselves what exactly they are talking about. So when next time my parents friend or relatives ask me “When is your turn?” , simply gonna answer ask to the Kollywood Gods who shelved my Love Story for now.

Live My life by My way

You know what?

I really have enough of being in your shoes

It is my life, it is not yours. I want to choose my choices

I want to walk in my own shoes I want to live my life now

Get off! I want to walk in this way. I don't want to follow you like a shadow

I know what's right and what's wrong, I am not a child anymore

If you still see me as a child, I will ignore you and I really don't care

I am ready for my new life like a warrior ready for a fight

I am being brave and I believe that everything will be all right

As long as I am positive and have confidence, nothing would stop me

Even a strong wall wouldn't stop me because I would break it in a minute

Manners and In-Laws

There are always problems occurring between Mother-in-law and Daughter-in-Law. And I'm always reading it in newspaper since my 11 years.

Last week my friend Neesha went to her mother-in-law's home for a week holiday with her husband. And since the first day of her arrival to her in-laws home both them called to Neesha's mom and complaining about each other. The Mother-In-Law says, you never raised up your daughter in a good way. Just see how she's behaving. She don't even knows the manner way to behave in front of the elders. Past these 2 days she's waking up after 11am and takes lunch and dinner before other and complaint there are no enough and favorite food for her. Is this the way a daughter-in-law behaves?? What will you do if your daughter-in-law does so??

Well now the daughter's turn!! My mother-in-law is the most worst lady in the world. She just kept sitting on the easy chair and ask me to do all those house-chorus!! Is it fair?? Will she do it for her own daughter and will she sit in the chair and looking while her daughter's in-law torture her as this. She is so much cruel lady. I hate her. Is this the way her mother-in-law treat her or her mother treat her daughter-in-law. What a cheap family is this and why you made me to marry him??

Mother was so fade up of hearing this all for past few days and she planned to talk with her son-in-law but he just pretend like the way nothing happened anything as his mom or wife says.

Mother-in-laws should learn to close with their daughter-in-laws. And yes not all daughter in laws are good nor all mother in laws are cruel. Some in-laws really take care of their son's wife as their own daughters. Sharing out all kind of stuffs, cook together, shopping together, watch movie together. But some nasty cruel mother-in-laws doesn't even let their daughter in laws to watch their favorite programme on TV and should watch what the in-laws watch. And this is all some kind of too much the in-laws behave and this make the young couples to come to decision of DIVORCE.

Mostly 82% of marriage life ended up in divorce with the reason of the torture by mother-in-laws. My question is why does the in-laws behave as this or just they wants too take avenge on their daugher-in-laws just because once them had been threaten in the same way? Oh!! Come on then. This shouldn't be the way but you have to be more nicer to your daughter-in-law till she feels you like her own mom but not as the cruel step mother. If mother-in-laws starts to be nice to these young ladies DIVORCE percentage might come down by very easily and there will be no reasons for the second marriage.

And mother's also should trained their daughter to give respect to the elder and behave so manner when you stayed up in some ones home. If anything goes wrong in this, girls remember they are going to blame your family only.

Dupatta

Can anyone tell me what's the use of dupatta for girls, young ladies and and for the old women's? It has a very special immense value for all the ladies generations. It symbolize the core of every Indian women in this world no matter they are from villages or the modern ladies. However, as much as we have progressed from being women who simply stood in the background. Dupatta is also something that represents to our culture by heart. Basically the duppata was worn to cover their heads as a way of respect during worship the deities and standing in front of the elder. It also considered of indecent and shameless of the girls being without dupatta in their home and roaming at outdoors. And the duppata always protects too. One hot summer day, it protects women from the hot burning sun. And during the monsoon season, this same dupatta help as much as it can keep you dry. During the winter season and the cold nights it keep you warm as always. The duppata is really a metaphor for Indian women's. She is traditional as they get and yet, she has also moved on being just an accessory. Just as the dupatta has moved on the while maintaining a tradition, the Indian woman has done the same. She'll teach her daughter to wear dupatta and love it while amongst the elders and wear it with a pair of jeans or skirt.